Epilogue

I feel as though I am a fairly self aware person, so this whole blogging thing was not too difficult for me. I know how I feel most of the time. However, the knowledge that people would be reading my thoughts made me a little apprehensive about going all out with some of my posts. I feel like one of the biggest things I learned through this blogging experience is that I do care what people say about me, even though I might not admit it. This does not mean I am going to change myself to fit into whatever role people want me to be in, but I esteem the opinions of others to some capacity.
I would like to reduce the amount of overall anxiety in my life. I do not know that this is something that will happen any time soon, but it is a long term goal to work on.
One of the hardest subjects for me to write about is myself. I often feel like I am too close to the picture to get an accurate idea about what is really going on in my life. This blogging experience has allowed me to reflect a lot, which is helpful in order for one to know themselves.
Hesitant- Before I do something I plan out exactly what I will do and ponder what the outcome will be. Even when I know there won't be negative results, I worry something will go wrong.
Sassy- I can be fairly sassy, so much so in fact, when I asked for a word that summed me up, one of my peers offered the word.
Weird- I feel like any example of this would eliminate all meaning of it, so I will leave it at this.

A Fine Line

Bad:

1. Anxiety: Phone, Social, anything dealing with the Future.
2. I am too hard on myself.
3. I procrastinate.
4. I complain quite a bit.
5. I have terrible handwriting.
6. I know a lot about TV.
7. I don't know how to accept compliments.
8. I don't voice my emotions. If I am actually upset about something I don't tell people.
9. I have a tendency to be insensitive to other's emotions.
10. I finished the bad column before I was a third of the way done with the good.

Good:

1. I can take a joke.
2. I don't surround myself with people I don't want to be around.
3. I am of average intelligence or higher.
4. I have good taste in books, TV, movies, et cetera.
5. I value people.
6. I know a lot about TV.
7. I am a decent cook.
8. I am open-minded.
9. I am spontaneous. For example, I started typing this without an example of how I am spontaneous.
10. I know when to be serious and when to crack a joke.

Valuable Lessons

1.) Every single person you encounter in life knows something you don't and has something in their life and past that is probably worth collapsing to the ground in an uncontrollably sobbing heap over, so be nice to each other and tell good jokes.

2.) There are always going to be people who focus on the negative and point it out to you. You have to ask yourself "is this person between me and what I want to do?" If the answer is no, ignore them completely. Do not surround yourself with this negativity and don't let it define you.

3.) Do not surround yourself with apathy. Passion is a dying element in our society and having it is important.

4.) Procrastinating isn't completely bad. Working under pressure is how some people do their best work.

5.) It's okay to be bat at math. Everyone has things they're good at and things they're bad at.

6.) Being different is not wrong.

7.) Two people can just not like each other, sometimes for seemingly no reason. Don't dwell on the relationships that don't work, but rather spend time improving those that do.

8.) There is a classification of people known as geeks. These people are some of the coolest people you will ever meet. Don't let the label scare you.

9.) The mentality that everyone who is not exactly like you is a toxic mentality to have, and those with that mentality are not people to surround yourself or emulate.

10.) The ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do.

11.) Enjoying things you like is not wasting your life. Enjoying things is the exact opposite of wasting your life. I don’t care if what you like to do is stare at digital clocks or ceiling fans. Immersing yourself in your interests cannot be measured in value.